Emotional addiction

I have always known to have been a strong person from within but rather from past three years I find myself contradicting it. This nuance was caused due to me meeting a person three years back. I still cannot forget the eyes which beholded me . They worked like an opiate to capture my emotions. I never could take up an audacious decision for myself regarding this. As a result of this the entire matter became dilapidated but till today i feel that i have shown up severe chicanery towards myself